Learning To Live

Where have all the comments gone? Hmmm... Today I watched way too much "Jon and Kate Plus 8" because I am a weirdo and I record every episode. Right. I slept a lot and decided not to go have fun or join my friends in their plans b/c the pollen count is so high and my sinuses hate me. Only two more weeks of hating and then I have surgery. I talked to my Sarah Lynn - I love her more than my luggage. We talked about me essentially losing/getting rid of a friend of mine, and she said it's probably a good decision. At the CF walk Sarah Lynn was really excited to meet this person, but this person was not at all interested in meeting her, or my brother or the other important people I really wanted her to get to know better. Sarah Lynn's BF puts my friends into two groups "Carla's Cool Friends" and "Carla's not so cool friends." Good Guy. I can't wait to see them this weekend! Like I mentioned, I essentially ended a friendship. I got s...

It's going to be hard for me to find someone to marry. It's going to be very hard to find someone who is better to me than Sarah Lynn, Chris, Kyra, or my family. Every guy I date WILL be compared mainly to my father, mother, brother and Sarah Lynn - since I have known them the longest and they take care of me the best. So today I heard from a friend that another friend (can I still can her a friend? We were friends in high school, but maybe not anymore since I didn't get invited to her wedding) was talking about me. In this conversation she mentioned reading my blog and that I seem to be really down lately, and she said, "I wish Carla wouldn't depend on medication so much and would find God in her life." It's been a really long time since I laughed this hard. Okay, so I realize she was probably talking about the anti-depressants, but fuck that, God can't help me. The chemical imbalance in my brain is not going to be fixed if I pray REALLY hard. No...