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Is This Irony?

I was sitting here at my desktop watching Season Five of "Mad About You" and playing Minesweeper. It's pretty typical of me when I'm at my desk. I watch TV and play Minesweeper or Solitaire - something mindless so I can pay attention to the show and think. And I was thinking about two people I know who would be a really cute couple. And I thought, "Yeah, well lucky for them they are both healthy." It's that whole - "No one wants me because I'm sick" thing. And I know I'm not the only one who suffers from it; we're the ones who have been rejected because our family is crazy or we are too sick or our left little toe is too big. And all we want is someone who understands. So my thoughts naturally went, well maybe I should only date sick people then because we would understand each other. My next thought was, "Yeah, but I don't really want to deal with that. I have enough to deal with." I am the people I hate.

What?

What is wrong with me? I really want to be the glass-half-full person, but maybe I'm just not. Maybe the things that have gone wrong or have been bad will continue to eat me alive and I'll never get out of this mess. But I want to be happy and have positive things to say. WHERE ARE YOU, POSITIVE THOUGHTS?!?!