Is This Irony?

I was sitting here at my desktop watching Season Five of "Mad About You" and playing Minesweeper. It's pretty typical of me when I'm at my desk. I watch TV and play Minesweeper or Solitaire - something mindless so I can pay attention to the show and think.

And I was thinking about two people I know who would be a really cute couple. And I thought, "Yeah, well lucky for them they are both healthy." It's that whole - "No one wants me because I'm sick" thing. And I know I'm not the only one who suffers from it; we're the ones who have been rejected because our family is crazy or we are too sick or our left little toe is too big. And all we want is someone who understands.

So my thoughts naturally went, well maybe I should only date sick people then because we would understand each other. My next thought was, "Yeah, but I don't really want to deal with that. I have enough to deal with."

I am the people I hate.

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Matt Todd said…
I know that feeling of no one will want me because I'm sick. I just got divorced and think that thought everyday. I think why would anyone want to get involved with me and deal with all of my problems. I know that if I were in that situation I probably wouldnt want to deal with that. Yes we are the people we hate. And then I also start thinking that I have no possibility of meeting someone because all I really do is goto dialysis and go home, and am never in a situation to meet someone. All I can do is hope that I am wrong.
December 13, 2009 at 5:27 PM
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