A New Motto

"I don't want to be the one who dies."

"Then be the one who lives." - Private Practice


A pretty good motto, if I say so myself. I'm going to be the one who lives. Sometimes it is hard to see friends die - especially hard if they die from the same thing you've got. It's a complete battle but I'm ready to take aim and fight every day. It's what I was put here to do. Fight, and write a book about that fighting.

(Everything else is just fun, but I sure do like the fun :-) )

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