My Daily

Photos I took on the way home while stuck in traffic. The police were blocking streets with flares... so some cool light things happened.





Here is my daily:

* I got to talk to Carls, so I was pretty happy. I hope we can actually get our acts together and go to lunch tomorrow.

* I realized I am just meant to babysit. No matter how I feel, I can always find the energy to take care of kids.

* I want more energy so I can finish organizing my house at a pace that is faster than moving an item or two a week. It's frustrating.

* I want to be all the way better. I need to figure out what to do about the back pain.

* Overall, I'm not too bad. The steroid I'm on for my sinuses and the hormone shot both mess with my mood - so I'm up and down and all over the place. Mostly down. But being around other people helps me forget that.

* I'm completely at a loss about what I should do about my mother. The more I tell people about things that have happened in the past, I realize I have no idea why we have let things continue like this, or how we're going to make it stop.

* It'd be nice to have one really great support person - and I'm talking about the kind of support person my mother can be when she feels like it. A person who will wash my hair when I'm too weak and hold my hand at my bedside, and give me hugs. Those are the three big things I need to get through the really hard times - that, and someone who will clean. Haha.

Comments

Matt Todd said…
Those are light trails. Its caused because the camera uses a really slow shutter speed in low light conditions and so then any movement becomes a blur like that. If you put the camera on a tripod and do it with traffic you can get some pretty cool effects. Stuff like this one i took http://www.flickr.com/photos/wogggieee/2442646614/in/set-72157604733274830/ They're really alot of fun, you should try it sometimes. And besides its a great way to make people look at you weird when you're standing on the side of the road with a camera on a tripod at night.
October 6, 2008 at 12:30 AM
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