Wednesday, August 6, 2008

Song Lyrics for my Soul

Here is me describing misc. situations that I've been in recently and the song lyrics I've used to help me.

I love these lyrics. I'm not sure I want to talk about what I associate this with, but maybe you can guess:

"Building a Mystery" by Sarah McLachlan

You woke up screaming aloud
A prayer from your secret god
You feed off our fears
And hold back your tears, oh
Give us a tantrum
And a know it all grin
Just when we need one
When the evening's thin

You're a beautiful
A beautiful fucked up man
You're setting up your
Razor wire shrine

Cause you're working
Building a mystery
Holding on and holding it in
Yeah you're working
Building a mystery
And choosing so carefully
***

This one, too, is something I may not want to talk about. I listen to this song all the time, and sometimes I just listen and cry. It's August. It has been eight years, Ladybug - how have we survived without you?

This song has a million meanings to me. And sometimes, I know it's me who is in the arms of the Angel - I love my Angels.

"Angel" by Sarah McLachlan

Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
There’s always one reason
To feel not good enough
And it’s hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
Oh beautiful release
Memory seeps from my veins
Let me be empty
And weightless and maybe
I’ll find some peace tonight

In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You’re in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there
***

This reminds me of my mom, and when we fight.

"Loose Lips" by Kimya Dawson

we won't stop until somebody calls the cops
and even then we'll start again and just pretend that
nothing ever happened
***

This reminds me of me. It reminds me of how desperate and depressed I used to be. It reminds me of people who helped me through it. It reminds me of who I am, who I used to be, and who I want to be. It reminds me of what my brother said to me today: "You have five billion friends, what's losing one?" Losing one is a lot when you've only got 5 billion friends. If you love them all equally, losing one is a lot.

"Loose Lips" by Kimya Dawson

so if you wanna burn yourself remember that I LOVE YOU
and if you wanna cut yourself remember that I LOVE YOU
and if you wanna kill yourself remember that I LOVE YOU
call me up before your dead, we can make some plans instead
send me an IM, i'll be your friend
***

This reminds me of how my life seems to go sometimes.

"So Nice So Smart" by Kimya Dawson

You’re so nice and you’re so smart
You’re such a good friend I have to break your heart
I’ll tell you that I love you then I’ll tear your world apart
Just pretend I didn’t tear your world apart
***

My songs help me get through my life.

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