Still Stinging

I got many responses to my post about dancing. To Jen, yes I would like a part-time job, but I'll lose my health insurance if I work. So yay for that. And I was reminded that this fall I'll have a little person to help take care of - and boy do I love little people! Especially in baby form.

I got an amazing email from an amazing person reminding me that she has been where I am - and she's now one of the best, if not THE BEST dancer I know (who isn't a professional teacher). And I will dance with the other team - I just won't have the administrative stuff I love doing. Maybe I'll enjoy dancing with no administrative junk.

I still feel like no one stood up for me on the team, though. I know they didn't because they'd most likely be sitting right where I am if they had. It just hurts to see really good friends continue to take lessons from him like nothing happened. Like they have no idea the kind of person he is.

I cared so much about the team - it was all I ever did, and I put everything I had into it. So now I have to find something else to put everything into - and so far, cleaning my house/organizing my stuff isn't working as well as I had hoped.

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Chris S. said…
Here are two ideas:
* Volunteer for something, like helping at Olbrich or something pleasant like that
* Work on the CF news blog I set up for you :)
http://cysticnews.blogspot.com/
July 9, 2008 at 1:23 PM
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