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My response to a comment I got for being so negative about my CF:

"Fuck you. I'm tired of trying to be so positive all the time. I am real. Do you think other CFers don't think this stuff? I'm the only one with the guts to write it all down.

It's my blog and I'll do whatever I want with it. If you're going to criticize me, at least have the guts to let me know who you are."


Seriously. I am having a hard time dealing with my CF right now, and it is my right to express it. "Think of the positive, Life will be better." Yeah, I've done that. And I'm tired of it. Right now. Things suck, and that's how I feel. In a few days I'll probably go back to being happy and "looking at the positive," but right now I just want to tell you how much my CF sucks. Because it does.

So there.

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Anonymous said…
you think i don't have cf? you think i don't deal with this every single day? why would i read your blog if i was not someone with cf... i deal with exactly what you do. we are nearly the same age, and maybe i am more able to say things to you because i don't know you, but i'm serious when i say you complain entirely too much. every day for you is a shitfest. it shouldn't be like that. i don't cry everytime my cf gets hard. i'm not saying i dont get upset sometimes but how in the world can someone complain about their life every day. there are people out there that have it far worse than us, and you need to learn to deal a little bit better.
March 17, 2008 at 6:55 PM
Carla said…
Maybe you don't get this, but most of what I say is SARCASTIC. If you don't like it - don't read my blog. There are plenty of "I don't hate this disease" CF blogs... go read them.

Don't tell me how I need to deal with my CF. Writing makes me feel better, and then in my real life, I don't complain.

I don't cry every time it gets hard either. I'm in the hospital every three months or more often.

Again FUCK YOU. Go read someone else's blog.
March 17, 2008 at 7:28 PM
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