Sunday, March 16, 2008

The Ides of March

This is all because the Ides of March. E tu, Brutus?

I want to curl up and die. Yep. Yep, I do.

I'm in so much pain. Emotional pain mostly, although my sinuses are going to hurt like fucking hell because of all the crying. Well, when I need sinus surgery, I'll know who to blame. Bastard.

I'm in so much emotional pain because of my CF - why do I have to go through all this other bullshit too? It'd be so much easier to curl up and die.

I just wanted something to help me forget the pain for a little while, and I end up sobbing uncontrollably.

I'm done with guys. DONE. D. O. N. E. DONE. I just. I. There. Words. NO. aRE. none.

I may or may not continue speaking to a select few whom I deem worthy, but other than that I will not be speaking to or associating with anything male.

All I wanted was the pain to ease up a little. Now I'm in more pain and I can't stop crying.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

you need to not be so negative. it's starting to eat at me. no one with cf that i know is as negative as you can be sometimes. cheer up and stop looking at all the bad things in life. focus on the good things. it will make life worth living. i know.

Dancing65Roses said...

Fuck you. I'm tired of trying to be so positive all the time. I am real. Do you think other CFers don't think this stuff? I'm the only one with the guts to write it all down.

It's my blog and I'll do whatever I want with it. If you're going to criticize me, at least have the guts to let me know who you are.

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